....but I would get in serious trouble.
So I will just say: Fate chose my relatives. I choose my friends. And my life and what I want out of it, and what I do to my body.
Saturday, December 15, 2012
So many things I'd say if only I were able
....but I would get in serious trouble.
So I will just say: Fate chose my relatives. I choose my friends. And my life and what I want out of it, and what I do to my body.
Saturday, December 1, 2012
Muse
I can't sleep and I have to study. What else is new. Not much.
I mean, grad school apps will happen over the break. They have to.
And I'll be just fine with whatever the result is, though I will take a year if I must. But I think I can get in somewhere.
But I see all these people that did get in good places and will be set or close to it for life, and I know I am like them. The question is, in what capacity? Where?
Passion, focus, motivation when the going is tough, and smarts are key to getting anywhere. So is learning to deal with your problems. I knew more people that had all of those qualities in high school than I did in college. Most of my friends who are pre-med, except for the one who got in already, either are not that smart or not focused, even though they do their work. They get wrapped up in other stuff and end up not doing anything worthwhile, and yes, there are other worthwhile pursuits besides medicine. Within my immediate family, we have two people who were very smart but not focused and thus didn't go beyond their bachelor's. One will be fine (he is an engineer and is getting married this May to a fellow engineer.) One could have become a lot, but she got burned out in college with triple majoring and lost her desire for further studies (she is now a midwife.) Needless to say, her parents aren't happy with her choices, but there's nothing they can do about it now. One who is close in age to me isn't very focused or motivated on anything, never has been and probably never will be, so I don't see her doing much unless she suddenly becomes interested in something.
So basically, the pressure is on me. I have to become something---doctor, researcher, something-- not only to make up for their lack of motivation/failures, but for my own interests too. If not for myself, for them.
I mean, grad school apps will happen over the break. They have to.
And I'll be just fine with whatever the result is, though I will take a year if I must. But I think I can get in somewhere.
But I see all these people that did get in good places and will be set or close to it for life, and I know I am like them. The question is, in what capacity? Where?
Passion, focus, motivation when the going is tough, and smarts are key to getting anywhere. So is learning to deal with your problems. I knew more people that had all of those qualities in high school than I did in college. Most of my friends who are pre-med, except for the one who got in already, either are not that smart or not focused, even though they do their work. They get wrapped up in other stuff and end up not doing anything worthwhile, and yes, there are other worthwhile pursuits besides medicine. Within my immediate family, we have two people who were very smart but not focused and thus didn't go beyond their bachelor's. One will be fine (he is an engineer and is getting married this May to a fellow engineer.) One could have become a lot, but she got burned out in college with triple majoring and lost her desire for further studies (she is now a midwife.) Needless to say, her parents aren't happy with her choices, but there's nothing they can do about it now. One who is close in age to me isn't very focused or motivated on anything, never has been and probably never will be, so I don't see her doing much unless she suddenly becomes interested in something.
So basically, the pressure is on me. I have to become something---doctor, researcher, something-- not only to make up for their lack of motivation/failures, but for my own interests too. If not for myself, for them.
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