Reading

Is very crucial for a passage based test.  And finding out what's wrong with a patient.

I also know once and for all I cannot do geriatrics.  It's bad enough dealing with my dad, who thinks he can now do anything he wants and get away with it since he is old.  At least, people at FSU, and my mom, are standing up to him.  He doesn't like it, but that's his problem.  But I know there are old men who don't act like a curmudgeon all the time too.  They just have Alzheimer's, that's all.  And that's sad.

Even if it's just for the votes he may or may not get in November, I'm glad Obama at least made a statement supporting gays' rights to marry.  I see no reason why I should treat gay people differently from anyone else, though I can definitely see how religious leaders would have a problem with it.

This new format is weird.

This isn't helping my bedtime ritual.  Stupid college lifestyle of staying up late >.<

But I'll go to sleep after writing this.  Promise.

Apparently Washington DC looked so bad when it was founded that one of the earliest senators said, "My God, what have I done to be condemned to live in this city?"  The things you learn from reading Profiles in Courage.  Though arguably, there are definitely parts of that city and suburbs (cough Anacostia cough) that look like that today.

The MCAT is a four letter word.  And will be responsible for my having no life until after I take the test.

What to write..

MCAT practice takes awhile. Like, give up your day awhile. I'll finish the other portion of the verbal in the morning and the practice test on Sunday. Need to do another full practice test this week after catching up on the physics.

Some verbal sections are really hard. Physical sciences I expected that, but the thing is, you can learn it again because you've already seen it once. You practice till you're sick of it for all of them though, just so you can not miss them on the day of.

I may have to finish the class for MCAT in Tallahassee, and make trips to TPR center to see people for my individual problems or something, since I'll be studying from the minute I get home. I'm not having a life till after the exam anyway (more specifically, when I get out of the exam on June 21 at 2 pm.) Whatever. I can ramp up the clinical hours when I return from Vegas and before I go to Chile, assuming I go (still need to schedule that Spanish test). And of course, I have to do it senior year anyhow since I'm minding the gap.

On top of all of this, I still need to pull an A in viro somehow (biochem is looking like B unless everyone fails the last exam and I somehow decide to study 14 days ahead instead of 7.) And generally finish out the semester. Write MEL papers, and all of that.

I also need to figure out GRE, since I've already told myself I'm taking that exam as well (have to have a safety net.) When exactly, I don't know. I know for that one I'm doing preparation in Tallahassee, though. And buy the books for fall and spend the week before school reading them a little. Well, one I already have. So.

I really am boring.

Except for the part where Rebe is making recipes for desserts and cocktails. Hmm. Those could be a welcome treat.

IUPAC-IUB

I get to catch up on biochem, because for the past week I was studying.....biochem. Not like IUB does anything for actually learning anything about membranes.
I went home this weekend. I shouldn't have. Dad blew up at me because I told him to please leave the doorway so I could walk through it. Yes, really. According to him, I'm just an arrogant, useless college student like everyone else he deals with, and that I should still listen to everything he says because he is never wrong, and that I've had my second strike; apparently my first was before I turned six years old. Hmm. I wonder why his grad students never talk to him anymore. Too bad if you mention that to him, he nearly throws you out of the house. And apparently, you're supposed to remember everything wrong the other person ever did. Whatever happened to the whole "forgive of past sins" thing?

I realize I should be grateful that I have parents who let me even visit home. But when going home turns into the man of the house blowing up at both me and my mother for no reason, why even bother?

The stupid neither forgive nor forget; the naive forgive and forget; the wise forgive but do not forget. I make every effort to fall in the latter category, though I will admit forgiveness is not easy.
I forgive people who blow up. But I can't forget. I have to stand up for myself in some way.

Clathrin coated pits won't accept that much LDL

.......and dish racks will not accept dirty dishes.

It seems that one is always destined to live with the people that are exactly opposite from you. For the past three years now, I've had to deal with at least one person who, for whatever reason, does not wash their dishes by day's end.

My cousin told me her stories of dealing with those kinds of people. Basically, nothing she did worked. So she ended up moving out.

This is totally coming from an only child who never had chores, never got yelled at to do dishes since Mom always did them for everyone. Yet, when I moved out, I did my kitchen stuff with no complaint. The dishes are washed and either in the rack or put away by the time I go to bed. The only time that didn't happen was when I was seriously ill last year, and sleeping all the time.

I just fail to understand why washing dishes after you use them is not second nature. And leaving dirty dishes out is not only nasty, it's just plain rude. You're taking up space for everyone else, and I can easily knock things over when I reach over those damn things to get to my own bowls and cups.

But, apparently, if you tell people that, they'll go right on doing it anyway.

Sigh.

Funny how things are

I always think it's funny how people think of actually killing the animal used for meat as gross, yet they don't mind eating said meat. I notice it more with the meats I don't eat (beef and pork) rather than the ones I do (fowl and fish). I have no problem seeing videos of any of the above animals being killed for food, polpescetarian animals or not. I obviously don't like the slaughter, but I can see that and still eat some animals. Well, not ones that give you either trichinosis or mad cow. I had no problem with pig dissections, yet people who ate the pig had so much problem with it. Funny. Hypocritical, actually. You eat the thing and you don't want to think about how it got on your plate......

Though quite honestly, I should probably cut out the fowl and eat the fish as that is better for you. That is not vegetarian by my definition. Vegetarian is not eating animals.

Regardless, I am done eating meat for the week. Huge frickin' serving at the cheesecake factory. Bhaji, rice and dal never looked so good.

Nothing endures but change

I realize how isolated I feel from a lot of people.

I also realize I've pretty much always been this way. It's not like I can't have a good time with people from high school or something, even the two girls from middle school I've kept sort of in touch with. But as Baxter said, our lives have all gone in different directions to the point where you just can't relate to a lot of people anymore. What does that mean, though, for a person like me, who has always had a hard time relating to others? Do I really understand the people I still call my friends, who were my friends in high school?

It's not that I don't have friends at UF. I have plenty, and I'm reasonably happy with my life now. But as we all know, the true test of friendship---or whatever passes as such----is time. I have had some taste of who actually bothered to keep tabs on me when I was away for the summer. Rebe is one of them. Regi and Sofi I talked to a little bit too, and of course Alex, my profligate sister/fiancee.

But they are what they are, and things work out as what they're meant to work out as.

Amen, and so be it.